Whitewash - Poem

I tried to paint you in so many

Different colours in my memory

Each represented different

Shades of your personality

Pink was for tenderness

Yellow for exuberance

Purple was for love and,

Red for confidence...

I painted you in all colours, but one

Which I saved for myself

Sky blue for longing and limerence

Was always on my shelf…

I am sinking into your thoughts

Or drowning in your dreams

What is real, what is fiction

Blurs and seem more dim  

I realised your thought

Is eating me piece by piece

I am losing control over myself

In the process bit by bit…

I am trying not to enter

Again in that deadly zone

feet on the ground affixed

and trying not to get blown

So, I tried to whitewash all the colours

Of you from my memory

Red, yellow, orange, green,

Purple, peach, and ivory.

But before completely forgetting you,

a “tear of blood” spilled from eyes
On the whitewash and alas,

Gave me realisation How Much I Love You… 

~Digvijay Sanjay Patil